Musings part deaux

[Frankdee20]

When I need consistency, it surfaces after I’m tired with the instability.

When I yield to stability, I find the external world, or at least my personal life, to present the same ***t I wanted to run from

It’s not that ******* hard to understand the conundrum

It shouldn’t be ******* hard to understand the poignant irony, the duplicitous polarity I am caught in between

Soon, I’ll be kicked out of the forum for deviating


But there exists environmental circumstances that play on our favorite topic of genetics and biology

And biology plays on shaping the environment

 

[Frankdee20]

I can only be proud of what I do at work, even though I hate helping lost souls, I get considered for promotions, and I decline

I’ve been winging it my entire life

I like praise at work, it makes me know I still have worth, even when I drink myself to death

But something is missing from my environment

I hate my girlfriend

But that’s another discussion

 

[Frankdee20]

My 14 year old daughter won’t speak to me anymore

But that’s my fault for being an angry drunk

I don’t care anymore

I know I can still salvage things

But why try ?

It’s a see saw

My second marriage produced one child

I’m ashamed of myself

But I’m trying to ******* balance the bull ***t


If I do anything well, it’s balance

Poor Libra

But Libra is still a Cardinal air sign

I need to move and initiate

Like the wind

Cheers

Drinking

Judge

But if you judge

Then walk in these shoes

It takes a special moron

To kill himself despite everything

So there go before the grace of god

Misanthropic

Proudly misanthropic

 

[StephanF]

Life is tough. Maybe look into Anthony Robbin, he has self-help books and lecture series to help you pull out of your current struggle. What struck me most is that he wrote down what he wanted to achieve and then things happened. When you write a plan down on paper, your thoughts materialize on that piece of paper, it becomes part of reality, I think that is how it works. Be honest with your goals. Write down short-term goals, mid-term, and long-term goals. Write down when you want to achieve those goals.

Go, just do it.

Also find groups like the alcohol anonymous, there you find support that can help you.

Life is short, don’t waste any time.