Thank you kindly. Big help. I opted for the long drive, bombed out of the city down to the wild coast to get some perspective.I so get what you are saying, I was feeling this a few minutes ago. I honestly had to focus my thoughts on something greater than my fear and remember the benevolence in the world. I have hope for Divine benevolence. It doesn’t feel like there is any benevolence in the world now, but there is:
the kindness of a stranger, your friends who help you out when you need, if even just to listen, the kind lick of a cute puppy’s tongue on your hand, the sweetness of a loving cat, beautiful sunsets and sunrises, the joy of a long drive, creating and cooking healthy dishes, a good jog or walk or yoga or dance or hike, little kids working to help their poor neighbors have food, etc. etc.
Some things may be bleak but may as well choose hope! And you’re right, there are lots of good people in this world.