fitnessgirl
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- Apr 8, 2020
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Hi everyone,
Decided to post my story and hope someone can offer advice or relate to it.
Health problems pretty much started as a kid. I developed eczema, was very shy and awkward. Got diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive type) and Aspergers. Was never good at making friends and am still a loner to this day. People try to befriend me a lot but i just can’t keep up a friendship and i have no idea why.
In 2015 i injured myself with sports and broke my leg, tore my knee and had surgery for it. Since then i have never been the same. I developed a host of mental and health issues after this including:
- I got Mono/EBV
- Gained a lot of weight very quickly
- Always tired and in a bad mood
- Short temper, desire to be left alone
- I have probably slept for 12+ hours every day since then. I work 30 hours/week and sleep most of the time when i’m at home.
- I bruise very easily and am always covered in bruises
- Scalp hair loss + excessive body hair
- Oily skin
Currently weigh 130lbs and i’m 5’9. I look pretty healthy but feel like death. I have lost interest in everything i used to enjoy. I am stuck at home and started binge eating again due to depression and anxiety. I am avoiding everyone including friends and family. I used to be our families ‘trophy’ due to having many talents and a promising future, but now everyone avoids me because of my mental and health problems.
Medication i have tried:
- SSRI zoloft and paroxetine both made me stupid and lazy
- Benzos xanax and diazepam made me tired and forgetful
- Vyvanse made me sweaty and productive sort of
Currently still reading the forum constantly looking for things to try. I made a list of stuff i am trying out right now
- Caffeine
- Modafinil
- High protein intake
- Very low fat intake
- Taurine
- Sun exposure as much as possible
- Blue light blocking glasses
- Nicotine gum 2mg not sure how to use it
This forum seems to be my last shot at recovery. Doctors have no clue what is wrong with me and neither do i. I just want to be able to enjoy my life again but i can’t seem to enjoy anything anymore. I keep falling back into this dark, empty black pit of self sabotage/self loathing. I even bought a dog and while i love her to death, she has not changed me.
Any help is appreciated.
Decided to post my story and hope someone can offer advice or relate to it.
Health problems pretty much started as a kid. I developed eczema, was very shy and awkward. Got diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive type) and Aspergers. Was never good at making friends and am still a loner to this day. People try to befriend me a lot but i just can’t keep up a friendship and i have no idea why.
In 2015 i injured myself with sports and broke my leg, tore my knee and had surgery for it. Since then i have never been the same. I developed a host of mental and health issues after this including:
- I got Mono/EBV
- Gained a lot of weight very quickly
- Always tired and in a bad mood
- Short temper, desire to be left alone
- I have probably slept for 12+ hours every day since then. I work 30 hours/week and sleep most of the time when i’m at home.
- I bruise very easily and am always covered in bruises
- Scalp hair loss + excessive body hair
- Oily skin
Currently weigh 130lbs and i’m 5’9. I look pretty healthy but feel like death. I have lost interest in everything i used to enjoy. I am stuck at home and started binge eating again due to depression and anxiety. I am avoiding everyone including friends and family. I used to be our families ‘trophy’ due to having many talents and a promising future, but now everyone avoids me because of my mental and health problems.
Medication i have tried:
- SSRI zoloft and paroxetine both made me stupid and lazy
- Benzos xanax and diazepam made me tired and forgetful
- Vyvanse made me sweaty and productive sort of
Currently still reading the forum constantly looking for things to try. I made a list of stuff i am trying out right now
- Caffeine
- Modafinil
- High protein intake
- Very low fat intake
- Taurine
- Sun exposure as much as possible
- Blue light blocking glasses
- Nicotine gum 2mg not sure how to use it
This forum seems to be my last shot at recovery. Doctors have no clue what is wrong with me and neither do i. I just want to be able to enjoy my life again but i can’t seem to enjoy anything anymore. I keep falling back into this dark, empty black pit of self sabotage/self loathing. I even bought a dog and while i love her to death, she has not changed me.
Any help is appreciated.