Grouptose
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I used to have anhedonia and numbness from taking SSRI'S and I still slightly felt numb even after it's been almost a year since I came off them, when I quit eating starch, I feel similar to how I felt before taking the antidepressants. So there's this depressed feeling that's hard to explain, I feel excited and still feel calm but there's just this gloomy blue feeling aswell. It must be due to lowered serotonin. I'm pretty sure that low serotonin can cause depression but in a non-suicidal way, because that's how I sort of feel now. Gloomy and blue, but excited and motivated for what's gonna happen later in the day, high serotonin is the opposite right? When I was taking antidepressants, I felt vibrant and warm but I had 0 excitement or motivation for what was happening, it was just "do whatever you want nothing matters" in a way.
Now things matter more, but it sort of gives me this inner anxiety that's hard to explain. It might be the adrenaline from the fruit, can someone explain to me what's going on? I feel very opposed to the thought of dying now, similar to when I was a little kid, like it seems like the thought of dying and never coming back is scary again. On the antidepressants, I was so happy with the thought of dying, it felt like that was my only destination and I would enjoy being dead. So maybe my serotonin has gotten a little too low? There should be a balance right? Because I feel like I'm on caffeine even though I'm not
Now things matter more, but it sort of gives me this inner anxiety that's hard to explain. It might be the adrenaline from the fruit, can someone explain to me what's going on? I feel very opposed to the thought of dying now, similar to when I was a little kid, like it seems like the thought of dying and never coming back is scary again. On the antidepressants, I was so happy with the thought of dying, it felt like that was my only destination and I would enjoy being dead. So maybe my serotonin has gotten a little too low? There should be a balance right? Because I feel like I'm on caffeine even though I'm not