I've been thinking about the general effects of being unhealthy at a young age, the consequences it has on lifestyle, and how it has influenced my personal philosophy.
Every since my flouroquinolone poisoning, I have been forced to adapt my lifestyle due to physical (but mostly cognitive) limitations. I understand that I cannot be involved in some of the same activities that others my age are able to enjoy.
In accepting my new reality, I have spent a lot of time pondering some existential questions.
On the bright side, I no longer see a benefit in constant partying or drinking/drug taking. After discovering Peat, I kind of feel sorry for other people my age who have to smoke weed or get drunk to get through the day. Of course I wouldn't be able to go down that road at this point even if I wanted to, seeing as how it's a struggle to stay sane every day as it is.
Another issue that comes to mind is the idea of inevitable decline. Maybe this is just my own learned helplessness kicking in, but after having a very real feeling of being sick for so long, I realize that it's unlikely that things won't get worse.
Sometimes this thought is frightening, but I also have a feeling that if I can ever conquer this, then there's likely nothing that I can't overcome. I am stronger than I thought I was.
I know this seems like a scattered or confusing post, but I would like to hear from other young people like myself who have been damaged at a young age, particularly PFS sufferers, FQ poisoning sufferers, or anyone who suspects they might have some HPA axis dysregulation. Everyone please share your thoughts on how being sick at a young age has changed your lifestyle/philosophy and how you interact with other people your age.
Every since my flouroquinolone poisoning, I have been forced to adapt my lifestyle due to physical (but mostly cognitive) limitations. I understand that I cannot be involved in some of the same activities that others my age are able to enjoy.
In accepting my new reality, I have spent a lot of time pondering some existential questions.
On the bright side, I no longer see a benefit in constant partying or drinking/drug taking. After discovering Peat, I kind of feel sorry for other people my age who have to smoke weed or get drunk to get through the day. Of course I wouldn't be able to go down that road at this point even if I wanted to, seeing as how it's a struggle to stay sane every day as it is.
Another issue that comes to mind is the idea of inevitable decline. Maybe this is just my own learned helplessness kicking in, but after having a very real feeling of being sick for so long, I realize that it's unlikely that things won't get worse.
Sometimes this thought is frightening, but I also have a feeling that if I can ever conquer this, then there's likely nothing that I can't overcome. I am stronger than I thought I was.
I know this seems like a scattered or confusing post, but I would like to hear from other young people like myself who have been damaged at a young age, particularly PFS sufferers, FQ poisoning sufferers, or anyone who suspects they might have some HPA axis dysregulation. Everyone please share your thoughts on how being sick at a young age has changed your lifestyle/philosophy and how you interact with other people your age.