I am currently 18. I have dealt with severe ADHD ever since my earliest memories. Must not have ever really learnt a lot of basic things because I was always running around the place. I will try my best to keep my thoughts organised during this post.
Around Feb-April time I had an OK time self medicating with caffeine. Suddenly I could get along with people and actually hear what people were saying. More energy. More confidence as I knew I wasn't being held back by ADHD anymore. Suddenly food tasted good and the world had colour to it. Felt like I finally had a healthy hormone balance. Voice didn't sound strained but I sounded as if I was speaking from the depth of my soul. Suddenly I became a magnet for people. What on earth? Also had a few nights of really deep good sleep, woke up feeling like I had been bathed in holy water. How can caffeine do this? No idea.
This didn't last long. The effects wore off. I thought I would get an ADHD diagnosis and try the 'official' (what a joke) medication. I took Lisdexamfetamine 30mg (9mg of the actual drug) for around 3 months. Of course tolerance built to this too. I think during this time I wasn't really eating much as I had ZERO appetite.
I eventually stopped taking them as the side effects got worse and I even had an ECG at my GP and it looked like stormy waves on a sea! I don't like my heart doing that. Must have been the drug causing that. I wasn't taking any other supplements during this time. I was just thinking in terms of neurotransmitters and 'trying to balance them out' which doesn't make sense now that I have learned more about metabolism etc... Also this medication caused the most insane 'synchronicities' to happen? Like just out of this world coincidences? As if something was trying to communicate with me?
I now have strange symptoms in my left arm, slight stinging/burning or numb sensation that comes and goes? Doesn't worry me too much as my heart feels a lot more regular now as long as I am calm. Maybe just my arm hurts from typing so much on the computer?
All this attempt to self medicate as well as getting prescribed the actual drug came after I was lying in bed almost all day. What brought this fatigue on? I think just trying to deal with daily life and miserably failing for 18 years.
Over the past 3 months I have been trying a few things. Small amounts of thyroid work but stop working eventually, making me more hypothyroid. I definitely think the amphetamine damaged my thyroid as I never had a swollen thyroid before. Vitamin B1 and B3 have offered relief. Methylene blue in small amounts can sometimes do something. I have been trying to eat more eggs, red meat, gelatin, cheese, milk and so on. ADHD makes it hard to stick with anything but I try my best. I get little glimpses into what life will be like in the future every once in a while and it does leave me inspired to carry on.
My biggest jump 'forward' so far came when I woke up really early to visit my aunt in another country. I woke up feeling dreadful in the morning. I woke up, had some methylene blue and headed to the airport. I felt awful most of the day. By the evening I was in panic mode. I then took a propranolol at my aunts house along with a bit of NDT and it worked?! I felt pretty okay for most of the trip and even managed to get my temps to 37c! I could even go outside and put my hands in my pockets and have them feel warm. But then my aunt served me up some chicken DRENCHED in PUFA. After this I got a massive sinus and ear infection and cold feet, suddenly had heart palpitations from thyroid again. Now I'm back home and back to square one. Even before the trip when I was at home I felt better.
A week before the trip I also had a massive detox reaction from taking a combination of MB and B3. Felt a lot better after that somehow. Not sure how to recreate what I had then again. I'm back to sleeping a lot now and waking up feeling unrefreshed and thyroid not doing much.
Current supplements are just B1, B3, C, Zinc picolinate 22mg, TUDCA and Adrenal cortex. Each one of these helps me somewhat. Adrenal cortex allows me to have one straight thought instead of thoughts that explode like fireworks.
I hope I haven't rambled too much and hope that this post is organised enough to understand. Any help would be appreciated at this point. Anything that would help get the ball rolling.
Around Feb-April time I had an OK time self medicating with caffeine. Suddenly I could get along with people and actually hear what people were saying. More energy. More confidence as I knew I wasn't being held back by ADHD anymore. Suddenly food tasted good and the world had colour to it. Felt like I finally had a healthy hormone balance. Voice didn't sound strained but I sounded as if I was speaking from the depth of my soul. Suddenly I became a magnet for people. What on earth? Also had a few nights of really deep good sleep, woke up feeling like I had been bathed in holy water. How can caffeine do this? No idea.
This didn't last long. The effects wore off. I thought I would get an ADHD diagnosis and try the 'official' (what a joke) medication. I took Lisdexamfetamine 30mg (9mg of the actual drug) for around 3 months. Of course tolerance built to this too. I think during this time I wasn't really eating much as I had ZERO appetite.
I eventually stopped taking them as the side effects got worse and I even had an ECG at my GP and it looked like stormy waves on a sea! I don't like my heart doing that. Must have been the drug causing that. I wasn't taking any other supplements during this time. I was just thinking in terms of neurotransmitters and 'trying to balance them out' which doesn't make sense now that I have learned more about metabolism etc... Also this medication caused the most insane 'synchronicities' to happen? Like just out of this world coincidences? As if something was trying to communicate with me?
I now have strange symptoms in my left arm, slight stinging/burning or numb sensation that comes and goes? Doesn't worry me too much as my heart feels a lot more regular now as long as I am calm. Maybe just my arm hurts from typing so much on the computer?
All this attempt to self medicate as well as getting prescribed the actual drug came after I was lying in bed almost all day. What brought this fatigue on? I think just trying to deal with daily life and miserably failing for 18 years.
Over the past 3 months I have been trying a few things. Small amounts of thyroid work but stop working eventually, making me more hypothyroid. I definitely think the amphetamine damaged my thyroid as I never had a swollen thyroid before. Vitamin B1 and B3 have offered relief. Methylene blue in small amounts can sometimes do something. I have been trying to eat more eggs, red meat, gelatin, cheese, milk and so on. ADHD makes it hard to stick with anything but I try my best. I get little glimpses into what life will be like in the future every once in a while and it does leave me inspired to carry on.
My biggest jump 'forward' so far came when I woke up really early to visit my aunt in another country. I woke up feeling dreadful in the morning. I woke up, had some methylene blue and headed to the airport. I felt awful most of the day. By the evening I was in panic mode. I then took a propranolol at my aunts house along with a bit of NDT and it worked?! I felt pretty okay for most of the trip and even managed to get my temps to 37c! I could even go outside and put my hands in my pockets and have them feel warm. But then my aunt served me up some chicken DRENCHED in PUFA. After this I got a massive sinus and ear infection and cold feet, suddenly had heart palpitations from thyroid again. Now I'm back home and back to square one. Even before the trip when I was at home I felt better.
A week before the trip I also had a massive detox reaction from taking a combination of MB and B3. Felt a lot better after that somehow. Not sure how to recreate what I had then again. I'm back to sleeping a lot now and waking up feeling unrefreshed and thyroid not doing much.
Current supplements are just B1, B3, C, Zinc picolinate 22mg, TUDCA and Adrenal cortex. Each one of these helps me somewhat. Adrenal cortex allows me to have one straight thought instead of thoughts that explode like fireworks.
I hope I haven't rambled too much and hope that this post is organised enough to understand. Any help would be appreciated at this point. Anything that would help get the ball rolling.
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