Its always x problem presents itself, remedy it with y. And so on and so forth. Pretty soon my problem is gonna be wrapping my head around advanced calc and not necessarily directly improving my metabolic health.It's remarkable that you can keep track of all the crap you take and stay motivated to do it. What nihilism?
It is pretty meaningless, but suffering and vomiting blood all the time sucks too. Killing myself without knowing 100% what lies on the other side is out of the question.
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Update: Visual memory is getting better along with auditory. I can remember most details of a day and play them back. Useless since I'm primarily doing mechanical work and carpentry/demolition right now. What a life.