I cannot stand summer. There's a thread all about summer and sunlight, and it annoys me so much because I dislike summer.
I remember some times during my youth when I was outside in the summer and it wasn't so bad. It wasn't so hot. I live in the same city I did then, so the atmosphere is probably similar.
Sometime in teenage years, and definitely in university, I started disliking the heat.
I am thin. I eat a lot of food. I thought that it was just burning all the food I ate that makes me hot. Seriously, when I was bodybuilding, I'd be hot all the time (a natural side effect of consuming lots of calories).
Anyway, I can't do anything when it's hot. My thoughts shut down. I get annoyed, and angry, and want to exit NOW. When it's cool outside, when everyone else is like "IT'S TOO COLD", I am comfortable. Comfortable for me is 50 or 60F. I can wear a tshirt and pants and be comfortable.
I like to have the air on when I am inside. I cannot focus, or sleep if it isn't chilly. Last night I got like 3 hours of sleep because the air wasn't on, and I woke up and I was hot and annoyed. The fan on our ceiling doesn't do anything. It blows air on me but that doesn't make it cooler or make it easier to sleep. So I laid in bed being annoyed and hot.
I dislike the summer. I don't like being outside, or going anywhere. Fall is awesome, winter is awesome, and I live in Chicago, and yes it's freezing here, and do you know what? It's preferable to summer because I can go outside and not sweat. I have a serious anxiety attack when summer is coming. I know 80 degree days means it's going to be intolerable for the next few months. I know it's coming. Everyone gets spring fever. I get summer dread. I am literally useless in the summer because I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.
Why is this the case? Most people I know LOOOOoOoOooOOOooOOVE the summer. They can't stop conversing about it. They can't stop waiting for summer to get here. Gross.
Do I just have weird physiology that doesn't do heat?
The only people I know who loathe summer are overweight people. I'm very thin.
My mood changes instantaneously when I get cool. I will go from being frustrated and mad to finally I can ******* breath (figuratively). I don't understand, I just can't... do... heat.
Does anyone know the reason?
But there's more to it. The times I go outside when it's cool, I feel awake and alive. I feel happy and full of love. This is rare.
When I go outside and it's hot, I'm so aggravated I don't want to do anything. I can't think about anything other than how hot an uncomfortable I am. Sunlight doesn't feel good unless it's like 60 degree outside, and I'd rather it be cloudy. Then I get inside and I either have to cool down by the air, or I just sit there and be ******* annoyed until it's cool, which could be a few days.
The air feels different when it's hot. It makes my skin feel powdery. I can't breathe. My self feels like it's fighting nature. I do not feel awakened or enlivened by the sun. I feel attacked. I feel connected to the universe when it is cool and I am outside. This emotion is so powerful I am not able to put it into words. It happens maybe a handful of times a year when I go outside and it's actually nice and cool and sunny and I feel detached from my worries. But I have never once felt this in the hot heat of the sun or in the summer. The only thing I can think of is "I cannot wait for this heat to be over, I cannot wait to be in the air conditioning, I cannot wait to be home." I am literally unhappy every summer. Some people have lack of sunlight emotion problems, I have lack of cool weather discontent. I am miserable all summer long. I am the opposite of everyone.
Being at a beach sounds like the worst thing ever. Hot and sweaty and hot and gross, and surrounded by people who love it, which makes me even more ostracized. I'm so miserable I don't even want to talk to people when it's hot. I'm so focusing on how disgusting I feel that I just want to leave.
I remember some times during my youth when I was outside in the summer and it wasn't so bad. It wasn't so hot. I live in the same city I did then, so the atmosphere is probably similar.
Sometime in teenage years, and definitely in university, I started disliking the heat.
I am thin. I eat a lot of food. I thought that it was just burning all the food I ate that makes me hot. Seriously, when I was bodybuilding, I'd be hot all the time (a natural side effect of consuming lots of calories).
Anyway, I can't do anything when it's hot. My thoughts shut down. I get annoyed, and angry, and want to exit NOW. When it's cool outside, when everyone else is like "IT'S TOO COLD", I am comfortable. Comfortable for me is 50 or 60F. I can wear a tshirt and pants and be comfortable.
I like to have the air on when I am inside. I cannot focus, or sleep if it isn't chilly. Last night I got like 3 hours of sleep because the air wasn't on, and I woke up and I was hot and annoyed. The fan on our ceiling doesn't do anything. It blows air on me but that doesn't make it cooler or make it easier to sleep. So I laid in bed being annoyed and hot.
I dislike the summer. I don't like being outside, or going anywhere. Fall is awesome, winter is awesome, and I live in Chicago, and yes it's freezing here, and do you know what? It's preferable to summer because I can go outside and not sweat. I have a serious anxiety attack when summer is coming. I know 80 degree days means it's going to be intolerable for the next few months. I know it's coming. Everyone gets spring fever. I get summer dread. I am literally useless in the summer because I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.
Why is this the case? Most people I know LOOOOoOoOooOOOooOOVE the summer. They can't stop conversing about it. They can't stop waiting for summer to get here. Gross.
Do I just have weird physiology that doesn't do heat?
The only people I know who loathe summer are overweight people. I'm very thin.
My mood changes instantaneously when I get cool. I will go from being frustrated and mad to finally I can ******* breath (figuratively). I don't understand, I just can't... do... heat.
Does anyone know the reason?
But there's more to it. The times I go outside when it's cool, I feel awake and alive. I feel happy and full of love. This is rare.
When I go outside and it's hot, I'm so aggravated I don't want to do anything. I can't think about anything other than how hot an uncomfortable I am. Sunlight doesn't feel good unless it's like 60 degree outside, and I'd rather it be cloudy. Then I get inside and I either have to cool down by the air, or I just sit there and be ******* annoyed until it's cool, which could be a few days.
The air feels different when it's hot. It makes my skin feel powdery. I can't breathe. My self feels like it's fighting nature. I do not feel awakened or enlivened by the sun. I feel attacked. I feel connected to the universe when it is cool and I am outside. This emotion is so powerful I am not able to put it into words. It happens maybe a handful of times a year when I go outside and it's actually nice and cool and sunny and I feel detached from my worries. But I have never once felt this in the hot heat of the sun or in the summer. The only thing I can think of is "I cannot wait for this heat to be over, I cannot wait to be in the air conditioning, I cannot wait to be home." I am literally unhappy every summer. Some people have lack of sunlight emotion problems, I have lack of cool weather discontent. I am miserable all summer long. I am the opposite of everyone.
Being at a beach sounds like the worst thing ever. Hot and sweaty and hot and gross, and surrounded by people who love it, which makes me even more ostracized. I'm so miserable I don't even want to talk to people when it's hot. I'm so focusing on how disgusting I feel that I just want to leave.