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Hey dear people,
I'm trying to keep irrelevant information out of this post and also, if I'm personally someone who is emotionally texting, I'll stick to bullet points to increase the chance that someone has a tip that will help me.
My problems over the last few years:
- overly in Fight or Flight or Freeze mode.
- internal contraction (tight in throat, tight in chest), constipation
- Worst case scenario thoughts or constant ruminating on free time.
- Sometimes gratuitous anger at my partner and tension in the body during intimate contact (without access to where this tension comes from)
Childhood:
- Violent mother (physical by hitting, cold shower as punishment, not talking to me for days, constantly alternating between love and repulsion).
- Psychotic brother who uses drugs and is crazy
- Constant drama
- Bullying
Personally I have:
- Read hundreds of books on PTSD the last few years.
- attended a few trauma courses
- tried all kinds of methods
- spent a long time with a Somatic Experiencing and Narm therapist
And tried the following supplements:
- Taurine (got a little numb from it, libido went down)
- Thiamine (worked great in the beginning, then not anymore)
- Magnesium (I only tolerate Sango coral, everything else had a bad effect)
- B Complex (unfortunately without result)
- Ashwagangha (I did not feel good with it)
and many more
What has helped so far:
- Maybe some here think he is a quack, but Joe Dispenza's work has helped me a lot. Especially increasing the alpha waves in the brain brings me a lot. As well as to strengthen the HRV.
- A few techniques from Neville Goddard
- Nervous System Regulation Techniques
What I would like to see:
- To be internally regulated
- To feel spaciousness in the body
- to be able to relax with my girlfriend or to be more relaxed in general in social contexts
- to live instead of circling around myself every day because my body is constantly sending me signals
By the way, I am 35 years old and weigh 93 kg.
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I often notice how my relationship with my mother still weighs on me. She is now 70 years old and two parts live in myself. One wants to break off contact with her and one part can forgive her. But I have strong blocks to answer her on Whatsapp or to call her. It feels as if there is a childish conflict in me that has not yet been resolved. A conversation with her about the things that happened back then, she would consistently block due to immense guilt. Honestly, the conflict or thoughts of my mother is constantly present.
It's just that sometimes I can't believe the conflict as much, because as soon as I manage to change my emotional state (which is super hard at times), I don't think about it as much. This thesis is also underlined by Joe Dispenza in his work. That thoughts are closely linked to the emotional state and they change as soon as you feel different.
And even if this all sounds dramatic, a lot of things are good in my life right now. I have a great apartment and a great girlfriend. It just hurts me a lot how little I can enjoy all this sometimes, because my body (and also my mind) sometimes get stuck in the past.
I wanted to share all of this and am open to anything that comes from you.
Since I think this is all about pathways in the brain, I hardly think supplements can help, but I'm open! :)
I did also some bloodwork recently!
Regards from Berlin
Bounce
I'm trying to keep irrelevant information out of this post and also, if I'm personally someone who is emotionally texting, I'll stick to bullet points to increase the chance that someone has a tip that will help me.
My problems over the last few years:
- overly in Fight or Flight or Freeze mode.
- internal contraction (tight in throat, tight in chest), constipation
- Worst case scenario thoughts or constant ruminating on free time.
- Sometimes gratuitous anger at my partner and tension in the body during intimate contact (without access to where this tension comes from)
Childhood:
- Violent mother (physical by hitting, cold shower as punishment, not talking to me for days, constantly alternating between love and repulsion).
- Psychotic brother who uses drugs and is crazy
- Constant drama
- Bullying
Personally I have:
- Read hundreds of books on PTSD the last few years.
- attended a few trauma courses
- tried all kinds of methods
- spent a long time with a Somatic Experiencing and Narm therapist
And tried the following supplements:
- Taurine (got a little numb from it, libido went down)
- Thiamine (worked great in the beginning, then not anymore)
- Magnesium (I only tolerate Sango coral, everything else had a bad effect)
- B Complex (unfortunately without result)
- Ashwagangha (I did not feel good with it)
and many more
What has helped so far:
- Maybe some here think he is a quack, but Joe Dispenza's work has helped me a lot. Especially increasing the alpha waves in the brain brings me a lot. As well as to strengthen the HRV.
- A few techniques from Neville Goddard
- Nervous System Regulation Techniques
What I would like to see:
- To be internally regulated
- To feel spaciousness in the body
- to be able to relax with my girlfriend or to be more relaxed in general in social contexts
- to live instead of circling around myself every day because my body is constantly sending me signals
By the way, I am 35 years old and weigh 93 kg.
__
I often notice how my relationship with my mother still weighs on me. She is now 70 years old and two parts live in myself. One wants to break off contact with her and one part can forgive her. But I have strong blocks to answer her on Whatsapp or to call her. It feels as if there is a childish conflict in me that has not yet been resolved. A conversation with her about the things that happened back then, she would consistently block due to immense guilt. Honestly, the conflict or thoughts of my mother is constantly present.
It's just that sometimes I can't believe the conflict as much, because as soon as I manage to change my emotional state (which is super hard at times), I don't think about it as much. This thesis is also underlined by Joe Dispenza in his work. That thoughts are closely linked to the emotional state and they change as soon as you feel different.
And even if this all sounds dramatic, a lot of things are good in my life right now. I have a great apartment and a great girlfriend. It just hurts me a lot how little I can enjoy all this sometimes, because my body (and also my mind) sometimes get stuck in the past.
I wanted to share all of this and am open to anything that comes from you.
Since I think this is all about pathways in the brain, I hardly think supplements can help, but I'm open! :)
I did also some bloodwork recently!
Regards from Berlin
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