I've had slow speech for as long as I can remember, and problems learning things like mathematics that require a person to keep a lot of things in mind. I've been very creative since I was a kid, with high intelligence that's sometimes complimented by people. Some of you that have seen my posts wouldn't have guessed I have a problem with slow speech. This problem had been invisible to me because I'm so used to this state.
So what makes speech different is that when a person is writing, they can focus on one thing at a time. But with speech, you think of what you wanna say, an entire sentence, then you say it. Well, I realized I find it difficult to keep so many words in mind, just like having a good understanding of mathematics, which has many different variables. I made a recording, and then I listened to it myself and had others listen to it. It's very noticeable slowness and kind of monotone. Full sentences are already hard enough, attempting to alter the tonality would make it even worse.
The memory issue also interferes with everyday stuff unrelated to speech or math. I find it hard to weigh out what needs to get done, and instead do one thing at a time. I'm failing mathematics because they're too complex, and I can't do anything about it. I'm really bad at speeches, but also socializing in general. I'm a very social person, and I care about it so much, so it's particularly devastating for me. I have social anxiety, and I think what really contributes is not being able to speak and figure out what the other person is thinking/feeling at the same time. So what am I good for? Creativity. But blue-collar jobs don't use creativity at all, and I'm bad at blue-collar work. So I would be a complete failure.
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There are substances that can improve working memory for people with ADHD including methylphenidate (Ritalin), amphetatamine (Adderall), and methamphetamine (Desoxyn). However, these substances are known for their devastating health effects. RP warns against them because they increase adrenalin and serotonin in addition to dopamine (the positive part).
I tried Ritalin many years ago. I remember it made me more social (I'm too social for where I live though), and made me more prone to play than work. Didn't have a "stimulating" effect, quite the opposite. But it gave me serious insomnia, and didn't sleep for 3 days after starting it. A single high dose would give me weird dreams for a few nights afterward, and in fact I peed the bed during one of these weird dreams 3 nights after taking a dose. I never had a problem with bed wetting even as a kid. Higher doses did made me pee very often and gave me cottonmouth, so I wonder if all these side effects are related to adrenalin.
Dopaminergic agents work well for people with ADHD because dopamine activates the site of working memory, the prefrontal cortex, which isn't very active in those people. RP said they have elevated serotonin, so that likely antagonizes dopamine's activating effect there. Therefore, anti-serotonergic agents are also likely to help.
Another dopaminergic agent that can help people with ADHD is caffeine. It's unfortunate, and possibly even tragic (if I don't find another solution), that caffeine gives me depression, lethargy, and suicidal thoughts. I wonder if it has a bad effect on my unique brain chemistry, or maybe if I have an allergy to it. I always "breathe through my ears" after taking caffeine when I didn't take it for a while.
I'm taking taurine, which increases dopamine, to no avail. Aspirin, niacinamide, pregnenolone, progest-E, vitamin A, D, E, and K didn't help. Zinc made me feel terrible. Epsom salts had no effect on this. Thyroid did improve mood, school performance, and facial complexion after months, but still have problems with what I stated above.
I noticed my school performance improves a lot after tianeptine, but I'm not sure if doses higher than the one used for depression/anxiety in Europe would help me more. It didn't speed my speech up at about 160 mg per single morning dosage although it helped with anxiety.
When it comes to school performance, I was failing both when I either didn't have enough T3 or didn't have tianeptine.
I was recommended lisuride for motivation by Blossom. Not sure if it would help, but I would have to order it from Mexico first, which would take a while for delivery. Then after all that waiting, it's still not guaranteed to help. I'll try to get it ordered, unfortunately I'm dependent upon people who dismiss everything I say as BS and might refuse to order it for me, since I have no paypal account or CC.
I don't know whether something that increases dopamine or reduces serotonin like tyrosine or p-chloro-phenylalanine (pCPA) would be helpful.
I've been on a RP-style diet for 3 years and it didn't help. Carrot salad, which I started recently, didn't help.
So I'm not sure what to try now. I tried to avoid failure, but at this rate I'm going to fail socially and economically if I don't do anything, and be a street beggar with no friends (can't tolerate mean, disrespectful, close-minded, neurotic family or living in such a desolate place that my family is living at).
So what makes speech different is that when a person is writing, they can focus on one thing at a time. But with speech, you think of what you wanna say, an entire sentence, then you say it. Well, I realized I find it difficult to keep so many words in mind, just like having a good understanding of mathematics, which has many different variables. I made a recording, and then I listened to it myself and had others listen to it. It's very noticeable slowness and kind of monotone. Full sentences are already hard enough, attempting to alter the tonality would make it even worse.
The memory issue also interferes with everyday stuff unrelated to speech or math. I find it hard to weigh out what needs to get done, and instead do one thing at a time. I'm failing mathematics because they're too complex, and I can't do anything about it. I'm really bad at speeches, but also socializing in general. I'm a very social person, and I care about it so much, so it's particularly devastating for me. I have social anxiety, and I think what really contributes is not being able to speak and figure out what the other person is thinking/feeling at the same time. So what am I good for? Creativity. But blue-collar jobs don't use creativity at all, and I'm bad at blue-collar work. So I would be a complete failure.
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There are substances that can improve working memory for people with ADHD including methylphenidate (Ritalin), amphetatamine (Adderall), and methamphetamine (Desoxyn). However, these substances are known for their devastating health effects. RP warns against them because they increase adrenalin and serotonin in addition to dopamine (the positive part).
I tried Ritalin many years ago. I remember it made me more social (I'm too social for where I live though), and made me more prone to play than work. Didn't have a "stimulating" effect, quite the opposite. But it gave me serious insomnia, and didn't sleep for 3 days after starting it. A single high dose would give me weird dreams for a few nights afterward, and in fact I peed the bed during one of these weird dreams 3 nights after taking a dose. I never had a problem with bed wetting even as a kid. Higher doses did made me pee very often and gave me cottonmouth, so I wonder if all these side effects are related to adrenalin.
Dopaminergic agents work well for people with ADHD because dopamine activates the site of working memory, the prefrontal cortex, which isn't very active in those people. RP said they have elevated serotonin, so that likely antagonizes dopamine's activating effect there. Therefore, anti-serotonergic agents are also likely to help.
Another dopaminergic agent that can help people with ADHD is caffeine. It's unfortunate, and possibly even tragic (if I don't find another solution), that caffeine gives me depression, lethargy, and suicidal thoughts. I wonder if it has a bad effect on my unique brain chemistry, or maybe if I have an allergy to it. I always "breathe through my ears" after taking caffeine when I didn't take it for a while.
I'm taking taurine, which increases dopamine, to no avail. Aspirin, niacinamide, pregnenolone, progest-E, vitamin A, D, E, and K didn't help. Zinc made me feel terrible. Epsom salts had no effect on this. Thyroid did improve mood, school performance, and facial complexion after months, but still have problems with what I stated above.
I noticed my school performance improves a lot after tianeptine, but I'm not sure if doses higher than the one used for depression/anxiety in Europe would help me more. It didn't speed my speech up at about 160 mg per single morning dosage although it helped with anxiety.
When it comes to school performance, I was failing both when I either didn't have enough T3 or didn't have tianeptine.
I was recommended lisuride for motivation by Blossom. Not sure if it would help, but I would have to order it from Mexico first, which would take a while for delivery. Then after all that waiting, it's still not guaranteed to help. I'll try to get it ordered, unfortunately I'm dependent upon people who dismiss everything I say as BS and might refuse to order it for me, since I have no paypal account or CC.
I don't know whether something that increases dopamine or reduces serotonin like tyrosine or p-chloro-phenylalanine (pCPA) would be helpful.
I've been on a RP-style diet for 3 years and it didn't help. Carrot salad, which I started recently, didn't help.
So I'm not sure what to try now. I tried to avoid failure, but at this rate I'm going to fail socially and economically if I don't do anything, and be a street beggar with no friends (can't tolerate mean, disrespectful, close-minded, neurotic family or living in such a desolate place that my family is living at).