mandance
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- Jul 5, 2013
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8/2/2013
Couldnt fall asleep again, took until 5am. I was feeling a lot of anxiety, and random shocking pains. Sometimes in my arms. Then my head was feeling odd, like something was moving inside of it. I still am getting that effect where when I am about to doze off, I get anxiety, chest pain adrenaline rush etc.
It seems I might feel a little less foggy today. I seem to be able to focus more on work, memory still is a bit off. Maybe pregnenolone is helping with cognitive function during this process. Keeping my sugar intake high as well.
I feel less depressed today also, although still pretty dull. Its hard to leave the house without feeling worse because of stress and anxiety but I dont want to get in the habit of being a hermit because I am already somewhat in that mode with freelancing and recovering. I think the hardest thing I am fighting right now is my own mind in trying to find ways to make myself happy. Its easy to dwell on the suffering and become depressed. I must
keep trying to use those occasions as a means to practice mindfullness. I have to believe there is a reason for all of this. At least a justification of trying to live a life without antidepressants. I still get the feeling though, that I have a long road ahead of me.
Im going to force myself to go out and hit some golf balls with my step dad today. Last night I went to the grocery store for my mom, ive been trying to take on little things like that. But it was very hard..it was crowded and I felt the stress and anxiety right away but I got through it. Little victories, I gotta give myself more credit.
these shocking pains and joint pains are worrysome.also feel more itchy?..my mind seems to assume the worst about any little thing..like that maybe now my nerves are messed up and the antidepressants had been covering up fibromyalsia symptoms for quite some time, and now that im off of them, im experiencing it. My muscles still twitch and go crazy at nigth, although its not as often still, this increase in pins and needles feelings in my limbs is scary. Hopefully it will go away, I need to try not to think about these things and focus on thigns that are positive and
productive. One day at a time, one step at a time.
Couldnt fall asleep again, took until 5am. I was feeling a lot of anxiety, and random shocking pains. Sometimes in my arms. Then my head was feeling odd, like something was moving inside of it. I still am getting that effect where when I am about to doze off, I get anxiety, chest pain adrenaline rush etc.
It seems I might feel a little less foggy today. I seem to be able to focus more on work, memory still is a bit off. Maybe pregnenolone is helping with cognitive function during this process. Keeping my sugar intake high as well.
I feel less depressed today also, although still pretty dull. Its hard to leave the house without feeling worse because of stress and anxiety but I dont want to get in the habit of being a hermit because I am already somewhat in that mode with freelancing and recovering. I think the hardest thing I am fighting right now is my own mind in trying to find ways to make myself happy. Its easy to dwell on the suffering and become depressed. I must
keep trying to use those occasions as a means to practice mindfullness. I have to believe there is a reason for all of this. At least a justification of trying to live a life without antidepressants. I still get the feeling though, that I have a long road ahead of me.
Im going to force myself to go out and hit some golf balls with my step dad today. Last night I went to the grocery store for my mom, ive been trying to take on little things like that. But it was very hard..it was crowded and I felt the stress and anxiety right away but I got through it. Little victories, I gotta give myself more credit.
these shocking pains and joint pains are worrysome.also feel more itchy?..my mind seems to assume the worst about any little thing..like that maybe now my nerves are messed up and the antidepressants had been covering up fibromyalsia symptoms for quite some time, and now that im off of them, im experiencing it. My muscles still twitch and go crazy at nigth, although its not as often still, this increase in pins and needles feelings in my limbs is scary. Hopefully it will go away, I need to try not to think about these things and focus on thigns that are positive and
productive. One day at a time, one step at a time.