Yea I feel similarly about psilocybin. I became much less helpless and needy, and let go of a lot of that false selflessness that just leads to negative feelings and victim hood. It could also be a bit destabilizing and cut my appetite which caused some other issues, but in its entirely it induced a huge personality shift in terms of how I relate to myself an others.
Forgot about mushrooms and acid, those are probably safer to try and might honestly even be a good idea for OP to do since even Peat recommends LSD in low doses. Those will moderately downregulate serontonin receptor activity whereas MDMA will nuke the serotonin neurons to death.