I want to talk about a "condition" I've been under for a long time. I tend not to trust emotion, for fear of doing something I might regret. Any type of excitement tends to create anxiety for me. I fight the experience, creating tension and stress. It's gone so far as to create extreme stomach pain and headaches, and I've ended up in the emergency room many times from it.
I've had multiple psychiatrists say that I have what sounds like post traumatic stress, and there is a few traumatic experiences in my past that I can point to.
When I drink caffeinated drinks, I feel terrible. When I take thyroid, I feel terrible. When I sit in the sun and feel what I assume is a boost of thyroid, I feel terrible.
So I will naturally avoid things that boost thyroid. But I want to do what is best for my health. I'm not sure what to do about it all.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of resistance to emotion or excitement?
I've had multiple psychiatrists say that I have what sounds like post traumatic stress, and there is a few traumatic experiences in my past that I can point to.
When I drink caffeinated drinks, I feel terrible. When I take thyroid, I feel terrible. When I sit in the sun and feel what I assume is a boost of thyroid, I feel terrible.
So I will naturally avoid things that boost thyroid. But I want to do what is best for my health. I'm not sure what to do about it all.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of resistance to emotion or excitement?