I am pretty excited so far. Been doing this several weeks about. Fortunately for me, the upside to feeling immediate effects of nutrition, is that while all the terrible things I have done (low carbs, not enough sugar, etc, grains) affect me immediately and like a freight train, to use a cliche, so do the benefits.
After reading up on and getting everyone's input on the B cocktail, so to speak, that is what I am doing. I believe I sustained much mental damage over the years due to health challenges. I often had brain fog, very hard time remembering basic words, and lots of struggle with taking information in without having to read and re-read it over and over again. I am definitely focused on anything that will IMMEDIATELY (since I am school-bound) improve my cognitive capacity. I don't have any time to waste on this, b/c this is essential for my goals, which cannot be met without high achievement in school. And high achievement, as I performed it before, draining myself and sleeping little and having constant anxiety, is not workable. I do not expect no struggle, but I do expect less struggle so school is not torment. Otherwise, my option is not to do what I want, which requires schooling.
NOW, as in today, my brain appears to be working as it should! What I notice is this: in the past, it feels often, as if it is going at high speed, yet not often fully connected to a power source, if that makes sense. So what I get is fragments and pieces, and it requires SO MUCH EFFORT (like 12 hours of study, straining to understand), to complete whatever academic issue is at hand. Now without the academics, I wouldn't notice this b/c regular things that ARENT SCIENCE are not very challenging for me to the point that I notice effort required.
Today, I made a point to eat MORE SUGAR. I am still a little skeeved, for lack of a better word, by doing so much of it, but I had, in addition to my coffee with honey (been using honey, not sugar) another jolt of honey AND salt. Wow! I am studying for the GRE, which I find very taxing. I am not good with standardized tests, and having to cram in lots of information without real boundaries. I have gone back to the data interpretation problems, which were harder for me, and now what I am noticing, is that it feels like there is this giant piston supporting my brain speed, so when I think, it is not just this sort of busy whirring looking to connect with lots of wasted energy between. The result is CONNECTION. Like I read the problem, I grasp what they are asking, and it happens in an organized fashion.
I am really hopeful b/c I found schooling to be so anxiety-inducing due to the amount of effort it required for me to have to listen to lectures all over again on a tape recorder and re-learn everything taught in the lecture b/c none of it went in. This would take hours and hours! So I was already at a great disadvantage b/c even though I was ready to learn, attended each lecture, nothing went in after a few minutes. I felt so anxious and upset, and exhausted due to this and the extra amount of study that this entailed just to take in the lecture, that I had to stop school for a bit and re-group. I REALLY want to be successful in school, and this means more than getting good grades. I got top grades before, but the amount of energy it entailed was NOT sustainable. I kept explaining, with people thinking I was exaggerating, that I could FEEL that the intelligence was there, but that the roadblocks encountered to get there were NOT NORMAL. I would get things like, everyone's different. You can't compare yourself. Umm, yes I can. We are not talking, Oh, something is wrong b/c I don't have Stephen Hawking's brain and I know I should. It was the intuition, the deep sense, that the information train, as I will call it, was being blocked. This has caused immense suffering and pain.
I am REALLY feeling hopeful. I don't want to have to try so hard. It is not healthy. Being motivated, is different than having to grind oneself to the bone in order to make it in the academic world. And my choice was starting to turn to just not attending school at all, which would be a shame. I need secondary schooling in order to become an Occupational Therapist. There is no way around it. And I love learning.
So far, what seems to be clicking, and I just started it yesterday, is the combo of B1, Niacinamide, and cofee/milk/sugar. Anyway, I am just so grateful and if I can do what is needed study-wise without feeling utterly exhausted (as I was while on low/zero/carb and even after just dropping out of the schooling for a year, was exhausted all the time and panicky/horribly anxious), would be a godsend.
My future hopes: I would love for my system to get to the point so that when something goes wrong (and it is usually school-related b/c other things sort of don't matter that much to me. I am lax about most everything else, and unless I am bleeding and dying, don't worry), I don't go into total flip-out mode. Maybe that will just happen with more sugar. I am certainly hoping so!
Anyway, I am going to get back to my studies, but I am REALLY excited about this. Plus, my "old" personality is back: excited, enthusiastic, and energetic. I don't have horrible feelings of doom and anxiety and my tolerance for upset seems to be growing. We will see.
Skin conditions are still an issue, but definitely not worsening. And haven't had horrible intestinal pain ever since doing this. Just some minor issues with the milk, but it appears that I may actually be able to do skim after all. Went back to it today after moving to 1% without a problem and it seems fine. We will see, but so far, this progress is wonderful.
After reading up on and getting everyone's input on the B cocktail, so to speak, that is what I am doing. I believe I sustained much mental damage over the years due to health challenges. I often had brain fog, very hard time remembering basic words, and lots of struggle with taking information in without having to read and re-read it over and over again. I am definitely focused on anything that will IMMEDIATELY (since I am school-bound) improve my cognitive capacity. I don't have any time to waste on this, b/c this is essential for my goals, which cannot be met without high achievement in school. And high achievement, as I performed it before, draining myself and sleeping little and having constant anxiety, is not workable. I do not expect no struggle, but I do expect less struggle so school is not torment. Otherwise, my option is not to do what I want, which requires schooling.
NOW, as in today, my brain appears to be working as it should! What I notice is this: in the past, it feels often, as if it is going at high speed, yet not often fully connected to a power source, if that makes sense. So what I get is fragments and pieces, and it requires SO MUCH EFFORT (like 12 hours of study, straining to understand), to complete whatever academic issue is at hand. Now without the academics, I wouldn't notice this b/c regular things that ARENT SCIENCE are not very challenging for me to the point that I notice effort required.
Today, I made a point to eat MORE SUGAR. I am still a little skeeved, for lack of a better word, by doing so much of it, but I had, in addition to my coffee with honey (been using honey, not sugar) another jolt of honey AND salt. Wow! I am studying for the GRE, which I find very taxing. I am not good with standardized tests, and having to cram in lots of information without real boundaries. I have gone back to the data interpretation problems, which were harder for me, and now what I am noticing, is that it feels like there is this giant piston supporting my brain speed, so when I think, it is not just this sort of busy whirring looking to connect with lots of wasted energy between. The result is CONNECTION. Like I read the problem, I grasp what they are asking, and it happens in an organized fashion.
I am really hopeful b/c I found schooling to be so anxiety-inducing due to the amount of effort it required for me to have to listen to lectures all over again on a tape recorder and re-learn everything taught in the lecture b/c none of it went in. This would take hours and hours! So I was already at a great disadvantage b/c even though I was ready to learn, attended each lecture, nothing went in after a few minutes. I felt so anxious and upset, and exhausted due to this and the extra amount of study that this entailed just to take in the lecture, that I had to stop school for a bit and re-group. I REALLY want to be successful in school, and this means more than getting good grades. I got top grades before, but the amount of energy it entailed was NOT sustainable. I kept explaining, with people thinking I was exaggerating, that I could FEEL that the intelligence was there, but that the roadblocks encountered to get there were NOT NORMAL. I would get things like, everyone's different. You can't compare yourself. Umm, yes I can. We are not talking, Oh, something is wrong b/c I don't have Stephen Hawking's brain and I know I should. It was the intuition, the deep sense, that the information train, as I will call it, was being blocked. This has caused immense suffering and pain.
I am REALLY feeling hopeful. I don't want to have to try so hard. It is not healthy. Being motivated, is different than having to grind oneself to the bone in order to make it in the academic world. And my choice was starting to turn to just not attending school at all, which would be a shame. I need secondary schooling in order to become an Occupational Therapist. There is no way around it. And I love learning.
So far, what seems to be clicking, and I just started it yesterday, is the combo of B1, Niacinamide, and cofee/milk/sugar. Anyway, I am just so grateful and if I can do what is needed study-wise without feeling utterly exhausted (as I was while on low/zero/carb and even after just dropping out of the schooling for a year, was exhausted all the time and panicky/horribly anxious), would be a godsend.
My future hopes: I would love for my system to get to the point so that when something goes wrong (and it is usually school-related b/c other things sort of don't matter that much to me. I am lax about most everything else, and unless I am bleeding and dying, don't worry), I don't go into total flip-out mode. Maybe that will just happen with more sugar. I am certainly hoping so!
Anyway, I am going to get back to my studies, but I am REALLY excited about this. Plus, my "old" personality is back: excited, enthusiastic, and energetic. I don't have horrible feelings of doom and anxiety and my tolerance for upset seems to be growing. We will see.
Skin conditions are still an issue, but definitely not worsening. And haven't had horrible intestinal pain ever since doing this. Just some minor issues with the milk, but it appears that I may actually be able to do skim after all. Went back to it today after moving to 1% without a problem and it seems fine. We will see, but so far, this progress is wonderful.