mayweatherking
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So I'm 6 months into Peating and this stuff still isn't solved yet. Yes, I am completely serious, this is so ridiculous, sometimes I think I will not get better and get depressed about it. Especially since my hair is getting worse and worse, I will be bald soon and I'm covering it up now. Oh and I still have no libido thanks finasteride you piece of ******* ***t drug, basically peating is the only hope I have at survival here of living a normal life, I'm 27 now, been dealing with this since I am 19, basically never could fall in love, but I went out and did pickup every night with no libido and no feeling and basically failed because I feel like a zombie at that. So I failed at business, I failed at my health, been doing it for 6 months straight, failed at love because I can't feel anything, lol guys... if I solve this I'm pretty sure I will become a billionaire or something because I don't think anyone has dealt with this type of bull**** before. I am like so numb to everything, I just don't feel anything, I just keep trying and failing like constantly.. it is sooo ridiculous. I feel like this isn't real life. MY PENIS HASNT WORKED in 8 YEARS.. I AM 27... WHAT THE HELL LOL SERIOUSLY WTF?? i think sometimes I am going crazy then I remember.. holy ***t look at this, i think other people would have killed themselves right now, at one point my **** was completely numb and went inside my body, it was like half a in long and it was having hard flaccid, like crazy high cortisol caused it or something i'm not sure. i have come so far.. yet nothing lol.. omggg this is seriously the worst thing, or mabe it's not, i have no idea.. my grip on reality is like so messed up, i can't even think of ***t rationally because of this.
I was out at the bars the other day and some girl gave me the finger after I was talking to her, I honestly felt nothing because of so much ***t I've been through, like it literally felt like nothing, I was just like okay cool, anyway moving on. There's another thing that is messed up, I keep going to the bars trying to talk to girls with feeling no libido and not feeling normal.. I feel like I am going ******* nuts. I been doing this like every weekend.
Now that I got my whining out of the way...
Here's my lastest labs from 2 weeks ago:
CHOLESTEROL, TOTAL CHOLESTEROL, TOTAL 197 125-200 mg/dL 01
PROLACTIN PROLACTIN 14.4 2.0-18.0 ng/mL 01
VITAMIN D,25-OH,TOTAL,IA VITAMIN D,25-OH,TOTAL,IA 47 30-100 ng/mL 01
My prolactin is so ******* annoying, it won't go the **** down. My cholesterol is high, I was soo happy to see that.. that means I can go all out on thyroid.
Honestly, the only time I feel good is after taking thyroid, wp-throid, but I've only been doing .25 grain. I started yesterday taking t3 in microdoses with meals, I think it helped. Honestly, I'm a point now where it is like **** it dude, I'm going to start upping my thyroid dose to .5 grain and maybe .75 grain a day. I don't know what else to do. I feel like ***t dude.
I took preg and DHEA, it made me feel wayyy better. I tried progesterone too, but it made me feel spacey AS ****. I couldn't even think, but girls were like looking at me and ***t, so I think it was helping me, but I still felt horrible becuase girls never really look at me, so I think it was boosting T or something, but I didn't feel a god damn thing. Maybe I needed more THYROID, but anyway, I should make progesterone and preg if my thyroid is functional so I'm going to go harder on thyroid now and not go down that route. Me and danny roddy both took finasteride, he had a bad reaction to methylene blue like me and progesterone as well. I think finasteride ****88 us somehow, made us unable to properly convert it or something.
I'll get labs again on the 29th because I ran out of money. I've been getting lab work done every single week, but it's been draining my bank account because I was trying to watch my vitamin D go up and make sure it was increasing each week and didn't go too high because I made that mistake before.
Now I'm doing...
t3 microdoses each meal (small nibble of t3)
wp-throid (bumping it to .50 tomorrow)
estroban (9 drops - 20 drops, maintaining that D level and don't want it to go too crazy, plus i'm almost out of it and almost out of money so i can't buy more right now, need to wait a week until i can buy more)
magnesium oil (makes my hair itch tho, the ****?)
my diet:
morning: beef and coke otw to work
mid morning to afternoon: 2 eggs, OJ, coffee, milk w/ sugar
when i get hungry again: cheese, milk w/ sugar, coffee, oj
home: same meal as when i get hungry again, or i will do another 2 eggs or have some beef or something with coke, just another repeat of one of the first 2 or 3 meals
then i'll do 5 mins or so of red light
1 - 2x a week: beef liver, lamb shanks, and oysters
ANYONE see something I'm missing? I swear to god I'm at work today feeling like a ******* piece of ***t thinking like.. jesus christ, I can't beleieve this is still going on, my hair is falling out a lot and I feel like so crappy that my life is like this. I NEED TO GET A GIRLFRINED AND FEEL NORMAL BEFORE I ******* BECOME 50 YEARS OLD, I CAN'T DO ANOTHER 8 YEARS LIKE THIS PLEASE WHILE I STILL HAVE A CHANCE, thanks.
I'll do a full hormone panel and redo the prolactin, D, and cholosterol on March 1st.
I was out at the bars the other day and some girl gave me the finger after I was talking to her, I honestly felt nothing because of so much ***t I've been through, like it literally felt like nothing, I was just like okay cool, anyway moving on. There's another thing that is messed up, I keep going to the bars trying to talk to girls with feeling no libido and not feeling normal.. I feel like I am going ******* nuts. I been doing this like every weekend.
Now that I got my whining out of the way...
Here's my lastest labs from 2 weeks ago:
CHOLESTEROL, TOTAL CHOLESTEROL, TOTAL 197 125-200 mg/dL 01
PROLACTIN PROLACTIN 14.4 2.0-18.0 ng/mL 01
VITAMIN D,25-OH,TOTAL,IA VITAMIN D,25-OH,TOTAL,IA 47 30-100 ng/mL 01
My prolactin is so ******* annoying, it won't go the **** down. My cholesterol is high, I was soo happy to see that.. that means I can go all out on thyroid.
Honestly, the only time I feel good is after taking thyroid, wp-throid, but I've only been doing .25 grain. I started yesterday taking t3 in microdoses with meals, I think it helped. Honestly, I'm a point now where it is like **** it dude, I'm going to start upping my thyroid dose to .5 grain and maybe .75 grain a day. I don't know what else to do. I feel like ***t dude.
I took preg and DHEA, it made me feel wayyy better. I tried progesterone too, but it made me feel spacey AS ****. I couldn't even think, but girls were like looking at me and ***t, so I think it was helping me, but I still felt horrible becuase girls never really look at me, so I think it was boosting T or something, but I didn't feel a god damn thing. Maybe I needed more THYROID, but anyway, I should make progesterone and preg if my thyroid is functional so I'm going to go harder on thyroid now and not go down that route. Me and danny roddy both took finasteride, he had a bad reaction to methylene blue like me and progesterone as well. I think finasteride ****88 us somehow, made us unable to properly convert it or something.
I'll get labs again on the 29th because I ran out of money. I've been getting lab work done every single week, but it's been draining my bank account because I was trying to watch my vitamin D go up and make sure it was increasing each week and didn't go too high because I made that mistake before.
Now I'm doing...
t3 microdoses each meal (small nibble of t3)
wp-throid (bumping it to .50 tomorrow)
estroban (9 drops - 20 drops, maintaining that D level and don't want it to go too crazy, plus i'm almost out of it and almost out of money so i can't buy more right now, need to wait a week until i can buy more)
magnesium oil (makes my hair itch tho, the ****?)
my diet:
morning: beef and coke otw to work
mid morning to afternoon: 2 eggs, OJ, coffee, milk w/ sugar
when i get hungry again: cheese, milk w/ sugar, coffee, oj
home: same meal as when i get hungry again, or i will do another 2 eggs or have some beef or something with coke, just another repeat of one of the first 2 or 3 meals
then i'll do 5 mins or so of red light
1 - 2x a week: beef liver, lamb shanks, and oysters
ANYONE see something I'm missing? I swear to god I'm at work today feeling like a ******* piece of ***t thinking like.. jesus christ, I can't beleieve this is still going on, my hair is falling out a lot and I feel like so crappy that my life is like this. I NEED TO GET A GIRLFRINED AND FEEL NORMAL BEFORE I ******* BECOME 50 YEARS OLD, I CAN'T DO ANOTHER 8 YEARS LIKE THIS PLEASE WHILE I STILL HAVE A CHANCE, thanks.
I'll do a full hormone panel and redo the prolactin, D, and cholosterol on March 1st.
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